it's so useless to drag it out this long..

Sat, 24 Jul 2004 17:12:19 GMT

"man, you're jailbait, and i'm wasted"
"man, you're drizzunk and you feel so good"

Tue, 20 Jul 2004 18:28:19 GMT

this is me updating for ANGELA BENDER - because .. i'm her whore.

LOVE

Fri, 18 Jun 2004 17:01:50 GMT

Thu, 17 Jun 2004 19:33:04 GMT

join ____lovely cause i fucking said.</span>

Fri, 11 Jun 2004 01:14:04 GMT

ten days till kurtis comes back .. <3

this will make me smile till then DOOD...

sponsered in part by: carlee .. :-D <33333

KICK THE FUCKING BABY!

Tue, 18 May 2004 23:26:37 GMT

i won't give in this time. fuck you.

Sat, 15 May 2004 17:37:50 GMT

www.xanga.com/soco_fall

Wed, 12 May 2004 22:24:54 GMT

this reminds me of bryan sauber. like no other. seventh grade he used to do the ''wax on wax off'' thing on my desk. well everywhere. and then the little chinese looking guy reminds me of kung pow, at bryan's with harry and jayson and weed. (sean) yeh. good ol' days. i need a hot compress for my neck. bye now.

Wed, 12 May 2004 22:09:39 GMT

whatever.

first comes love then comes marriage ...

Tue, 11 May 2004 00:56:39 GMT

kay eye es es eye en gee

i heart you

welcome passengers this is your captian speaking

Sun, 09 May 2004 21:15:14 GMT

fun filled day today. yeh. so i had to go to church. refused to sit in there cause i think i have a cold. and i was all sniffly. then uhm .. chinese with the parents and gma. crazy ladies talking not my language. fish eyes. movie place. rented movies. that's where i'm headed now. shower, movies, sleep. no internet i'm real sick of it. no need for it really. oh yes, i forgot to talk about soundwaves cause i totally forgot i even went there for a little. but yeh. sat around in the begining, danced with corissa, kid threatened to SLAP her. ha. cause of natalie with fire around his car. i guess i wouldn't be to trusting either :) joke. corissa looked cute with her bow. i must admit. heather looked mad i think. :-/ .... saw eden. she was mad too i think. wow i'm so going backwards. not in order at all. joey wrote on me. kurt drew some pretty cool pictures on my arms, damn cameras broken. FUCK. yeh. went on an "adventure" with kurt. just kurt. not an adventure like yesterday but. a good one :) <3 yeh. OH i soooo saw a bus today that was for sale *tour bus* it made me think of corissa and our doggy pillow tour bus. like fucking woah. okay well yeh. i'm going now to do nothing :)

i love you.

i'd like to hold her head underwater

Sat, 08 May 2004 23:41:28 GMT

just got home from being with kurt casey bone and redarms most of the day, there was another guy too, chris? i don't remember. went to wendys .. bone couldn't remember any orders so redarms is like just fucking drive away fucking drive (had to be there) so we went on an adventure (me kurt bone redarms .. casey i thought was going for natalie but went somewhere else i guess) and we found this place. i so fucking wish i would have had my camera. we called it a run down kiddy porn dungeon ... bone called it the kiddy porn drive in. hacked like there was no tomorrow. the place was crazy. fucking echos. holy shit. i was so zoned out. then we uhhh met up with casey at the getty, called for natalie she was sleeping, so no to going to her house tonight i suppose. so i came here instead of going to a party. i should have went but i was pushing my luck going out two nights in a row. two days at that. my parents don't trust teenagers driving me, they trust casey now though :) awesome. now we just need natalie's dad to stop being "asian" and let her. anyway. yeh. man. i could use a cold shower. hardcore. like woah. uuhhhhhh yeh. i'm going now. <3

i love you. "cause' your pretty"

dump me over the fucking bridge and walk the FUCK away.

Thu, 06 May 2004 20:41:15 GMT

okay so i didn't update yesterday cause i was at the school serving beautiful detention till 4:10 and then i left with kurt and went to his house. there till ten (I <3 him) then i went to bed when i got home cause i was MAD tired [hit me if i EVER say that again, EVER] so yeah. then today everything was just bullshit. i hate when i get days like these cause nothing really was wrong just school stuff and teachers, and i felt like i was being really unfair not talking to my friends and all that. if my FUCKING mother would get my FUCKING medicine i NEED then i wouldn't be like this. she worries about "the long run" .. fuck the long run what about NOW!? ..... fuck her. fuck all those FUCKING idiots.

i said fuck alot. i'm sorry.
more drugs.

i love you.

found in a pearl white straightjacket splattered in blood

Wed, 05 May 2004 01:29:04 GMT

ten questions, are there ten? GOTCHA that'd be eleven. foo'

here it goes:

# whats your fondest memory of me?
# whats the first thing that comes to mind when you see me?
# if we were to go on a first date would you give me your real phone number?
# if you knew I was calling, how many times would you let it ring before picking up?
# if you could take back our friendship/relationship, would you [why?]
# what would you label me as if you had to?
# if you could dress me what store would buy clothes from for me?
# do I resemble anyone famous [who?]
# since your filling this out does that mean you love me?
# was this a lame survey?

[insert heart here]

Tue, 04 May 2004 00:20:28 GMT

like woah.

im just a whore and life is a wet dream. (theme of that simple plan song .. bleh)

Sun, 02 May 2004 00:20:18 GMT

isolated in this little computer room with the dog. three little terd children running around. well no. i like erin, she's ok. but the other two that are her friends need to go.

the one (girl) she spases out at her parents and i mean i'm not one to say ''hey, be nice to your parents,'' but her parents are so nice to her and she's just a little cunt whore. ehh here comes the little cunt whore now (you understand that nickname makes no sense, she's like seven.)

to tell you the truth i thought up that nickname coming home from a walk down the street. i'm so hardcore like that. like none otha.

hmm i hope those people go home so i don't have to hear them, and so i can take the dog outside because he's been locked up all because of them.

gosh i don't want to be here. no you know, i would want to be here, if this wasn't against my will and if i could see kurt. :-/. whatever.

THERES SO MUCH TO COMPLAIN ABOUT i feel guilty for complaining to jeff (harkcom) but right now he's one of the only people that listens and doesn't get frustrated with me. cause he's cool like that.

my parents being at camp makes me sad. not because they're gone cause i couldn't care less but because i keep picturing our little group on the back deck, me jeff that red head girl and jake and NOLAN <3!! that's all i can picture. (nolans a joke) lol. and i just miss everyone :(.

nothings the same anymore.

BRAIDEN LEITH GALSON IS COMING HOME SOON.

(letting you all know cause i know you're all just so excited like me)

some people need to leave me alone. no wonder i don't get to drive anywhere with teenagers, they come to my house and leave alcohol lay, if that's not suspicious then i don't know what is. i wouldn't drive with someone if i didn't trust them.

ok i'm gone now. done complaining for now.

i love himmm.

Fri, 30 Apr 2004 20:56:25 GMT

polkadot.

nazi salute

Tue, 20 Apr 2004 19:48:54 GMT

Happy Birthday Hitler ........

"shut up, or i'll shoot you, wow, maybe i shouldn't say that, fifth anniversary of columnbine ... oooppps"

this is me updating for errrrkkaaa. (say it like errbuddy like in that err budy in the club gettin tipsay) woo.

Happy Birthday Barbara <3

EX OH

don't sugar coat it sweetie ..

Thu, 15 Apr 2004 23:34:30 GMT

so yesturday i went to coffee house with corissa. it was alright, if tonya and them didn't go it wouldn't have been as fun just cause they're funny and some poems were highly pathetic. After that i went to corissas ... we were not photogenic. Something was wrong or something i don't know. I picked up her Tarot cards and they were in a black cover and she told me that you can't set them on any surface without the black cover. Well i knew that because of previous experiences but she said they had to be in a certain way. ofcourse she only told me that after we saw these orb looking things in this picture. we were taking pictures before and after and only right after i opened them were there orbs. We were like wooahhh. Awesome.

look close ...

So then we remembered that her gma didn't write a note for me so we snuck on the internet to see if kourtni was on to ask her and after all that trouble we went through she wansn't on :( well that's okay everything worked out. I think the funniest thing that happened was me and corissa were like "okay man lets not take showers and just go to school cause we don't care" not even like 10 minutes later she was standing in the bathroom saying, does my hair smell, ohhh my ears does it smell and we ended up washing some of her hair. jeeze. she's insane. So we got in bed, chocolate and greentea .. blehh. stale peeps <3 ....... talked till three in the mownin' ... ha. had to run to the bus. the day was ok. "we have POSITIVE ATTITUDE TODAY" ... lol. asian voice. everything is asian voice these days. okay well im done typing nothing too exciting happened today durring school i don't think. or maybe it did and it will come to me later when i couldn't care less about lj. BYee.

yep. so that's for last friday and tomorrow, just so you know.

i love youu.

and then i fall to pieces -- (yes, pIEces.)

Tue, 13 Apr 2004 20:41:56 GMT

wow i just so did my entire livejournal and i just accidently erased it -- i will write when i get home -- i'm angry now.

LOVE LOVE LOVVAHH --

pushing in the pin ...

Sun, 11 Apr 2004 23:02:41 GMT

hmm i haven't updated for a while. Nothing really has been going on. Today i went for easter dinner, puke. I had to sit there and listen to family talk. All day. YES. Just what i wanted to do. Had to go to church twice today, at 5:30 and at 9 .... EHHH. i HATE it. I have to admitt this early service was better then most. aj was there. and lauren. :) .. saw the librarian and uhh ... the nurse there. no miss mohn this year. DAMN. anyway yeah i feel like crawling in a dark hole. For a couple reasons:

I hate myself most of the time.
I feel inferior lately.
Home life sucks ass if you ask me.

ehh forget it.

i love you.

gangsta style .............

Tue, 06 Apr 2004 18:10:38 GMT

So i left school durring ag, before lunch, because i puked in the bathroom, now i'm just sitting around, my moms making me eat. she left now though so i can go puke again. i hate this. i smell like rice crispie treats? whhattt?

happiness --

gangsta style ....

i must admitt jason's party is the best party i've been to lately. I do miss the old parties i used to go to, but yeah well. Anyway i love jason. He's the coolest cousin. Towards the end i could have killed him but it's okay :) .... i liked just being with kurt ... and spending the night, you don't even understand. We finally found a place to sleep. They wouldn't let us sleep on the porch and the basement was cold and smelled so we ended up squeezing into j's room .. harold was annoying, but he couldn't help it. Poor kid. He's hilarious. Everytime kurt looked away andy threatened to kill me, or said he hates me. That kid is so ridiculously funny .. man oh man. I think the funniest part of the weekend was when after sunday just laying around me and corissa sitting there watching tv, kurts out, j's sitting there half asleep, he quick sits up, lights kurt's socks on fire and lays back down. Me and corissa lost it. just the fact that we were like WOAH and it didn't even phase j that he was lighting his socks on fire .. i guess you had to see it. So the next half an hour we were all lighting our socks on fire. what we do for fun.

friendship cuts <3

LOVE

[disappointed = in my self]

Sat, 03 Apr 2004 16:33:52 GMT

i'm feeling a TAD bit better. today is supposed to be fun. corissa should be here i guess around 3 maybe? i don't know she's not on she sleeps late. because she doesn't have a NAZI mom that wakes her up at 9. so anyway yeah. Jasons house, do some stuff you know. Sleeping over, girls in one place guys in the other. whatever. no sleeping for me. i'll smell like smoke for church but hey, i'll get over it. Me and corissa are going to be grunge i presume. lol. \X/ rock out.

i love her.

(she knows something you don't know and i like to deny)

<3 insanity.

it's useless to drag it out this long

Sat, 03 Apr 2004 03:18:56 GMT

I'm not liking picture fridays anymore i don't think. I mean, it's only been the second friday and i already don't like it. Damn LJ rating communities they crush your self esteem for the fun of it. i think i might get over it though. i don't know. me and corissa will stick to our 7 calorie cookies and then maybe i'll post new pictures when i feel up to it.

blehh.

i wish everyone was blind. then things like this wouldn't bug me.All of a sudden i'm like feeling ... dead inside, and i don't understand. i think i just need to be with people. but then again i kind of don't want to be. EHH ITS KILLING ME.

<33

kick a baby.

seal the deal in the parking lot with a kiss

Fri, 02 Apr 2004 03:02:41 GMT

WHY TODAY, WHY'D WE HAVE TO HAVE TACOS TODAY, WHY NOT YESTERDAY, WHY NOT THE DAY BEFORE OR TOMORROW?! ..

you wouldn't understand. it made me CRY.

<3